Hi friends hope all of you are doing well and are safe. I have been away from this platform for a while and today when I reflect and write this blog. I feel overwhelmed.
As most of you know I am a counselor and psychotherapist, people instantly beleive I have things in control and I am able to march my way through any problem.
But .. reality check!
No it's not easy or a march out of problems..
Today I will share with you what life Taught me in last few months.
As I had shared earlier I lost my dog as I recovered from that trauma. I got covid positive not once but twice and both the times it was an emotional and traumatic experience.
As post recovery I started getting back to my life I lost my dear friend to covid it just broke me down and I just lost it …I had started to isolate my self …not go out …i had become quite ..all my appointment were on hold and I felt unworthy of anything…
I was just surviving and living Nothing mattered…it was in this phase I came to know my sister was going through a very difficult time…that was like last strech of the rubber…I was so angry at God, society, people,my parents , husband…I just felt like I was wronged by everyone and no one is taking my side…even destiny is doomed for me…I was feeling like an imposter not my self at all….
In between of all of this I received an email from my old client …it was an emotional email …expressing their gratitude and thanks for the healing counselling had done and how my client was celebrating 10th years of being sober.
The very same day one of client called and spoke to me for almost an hour and shared how moving on in life and little faith has helped.
Among all this happening I saw the movie “life is beautiful”…
Something clicked in me and i connected to movie. I realised my thoughts are just thoughts not my reality.
I realised it's almost been four to five months and i have brought my life to halt
I decided to practice what I have always asked my clients to do…be kind to my self, be true to my self …trust my self and stick to my work and schedule…
I made my schedule started reconnecting with my work, family and reached out to my sister gave her all the support I could.
One thing that I did to pull my self is I created my time…I make handmade organic soaps it's a hobby I love …did that ..started to go to out with my dogs…
Slowly slowly there was a change and after a long time decided to write again …here I am …this community of writters at candle monk have always inspired me and made me feel welcomed even when I wrote after a really long time…
So I decided….
My next blog will be about sharing with all of you what I experienced and what life Taught me ..
My lesson is there is always a silver lining to the cloud…
Rainbow is always after the rains and there is always a choice …
That's all for today…thankyou candle monk community for being part of my life ..
Till next time
