Hello guys, today I am in deep thought and had a bad day, and I felt like writing about it…

My 6 yrs old dog name is Pogo, don't go with the name, he is not funny and friendly as his name but is aggressive and stubborn in nature.

Though he don't bite us (owner) but is very aggressive when it come to strangers and is very reluctant to change, all of his activities and actions depends on his mood.

Like any other owners of pet I am also too sensitive and emotinal when it comes to my pet, my dog who has been with me for six years running and playing, eating and guarding my house for almost five years is diagnosed as diabetes today.

He was ill since 2 months, started from shortness of vision, fatigue, cough and weight loss, today the vet informed me that, he has a less chances of survival even that may not to be counted as year.

I had faced departing of my loved ones before, I know the pain of people leaving us, but today is the first time, I am in the situation regarding my pet, so I don't know if I should, hold myself or cry loud.

Since, this two months our whole family has been caring him and we all were hoping for his recovery and frequently visited the vet, just like humans I felt like some people around me is terminally ill and has less chances of survival.

My dog Pogo though is of mastiff bread and was originally brought from very high altitude and his initial pharse to adopt to our place was little hard for him but it was normal now, I don't know if all the pet owners feel the same or not but everytime I am seeing him, my heart aches a lot, just like I am seeing my own sick child, of whose I am not able to ease their pain.

Just a passage of 2 months and my lively dod has become weak unable to walk and due to loss of vision he fall here and there, this situation is really giving me a heartache as if some thing is struck in my throat.

I pray for his recovery, I pray and wish that if there is an afterlife as written in Hindu Purana and Vedas, I want him to be born as my own child in the next life and though his this life was short I want him to born again and spend more time with me, free from this kind of illness. I want him to have a happy life.

Though I don't have children, raising him was like raising my child and now when I know he is leaving me soon, I wonder how those parents who have lost their child smile and move on in life.

I really empathize those parents and today I realised, a place in our heart will always be vacant for our loved one's who left is halfway of whose presence will always me missed through our lifetime…

I just want my dog to know that he will always remain as a first child to me….and want him to know I am still hoping for his recovery…