When I was young and had my first relationship at the age of 20, I used to think I have got my whole world into my partner and soon when it started became toxic I started adjusting with the relationship needs and the partner. It was so amazing when I look back and think that women are tend to adjust with everything when the need comes. I used to think, It would be impossible to live my life without my partner. For that fear I dragged the relationship for 3 more years, always used to say sorry for no faults of mine and tried to make things right.

But when the next partner came into my life as my friend I felt a sense of support and strength and sometimes you really need the outside people judgement to understand where you have to rectify your life. I ended my first relationship in a heartbeat and overnight. That time I was 25 and trust me I did not feel anything , I did not even cry and did not even bother to enquire that how my ex was dealing with this. Sometimes , certain people became so bitter that after breaking up, you just do not feel like talking to them, even for once.

But, I made my second mistake again. Instead of taking time for myself, I jumped into the next relationship and I thought it was a success after 5 years. Right that moment, before 14 days of my engagement he backed out, stating that he was not ready for this commitment. Right that moment, I felt absolutely broke. That feeling continued for another 15 days. But one thing I did right, I never left working or living my daily routine. Dealing with that pain, my heart ached on every night when I tried to sleep and all the flashbacks used to come in front of my eyes and I used to wonder that what went wrong.

But sooner I realized, absolutely no one is as important in your life as you are. After all these failed relationships I realized that at the end of the day, one has to be happy, be it in a relationship or single. I am enough for myself and I do not need any partner to complete. I think now I am matured enough to say that I would not do any unnecessary adjustments or I can come out of a toxic relationship because today I know what it means to be happy within yourself……………………………