Do you believe in love? Is it true that it can heal every wound, in most cases yes it can. When you are depressed when everything hits you when you feel low when your mood is not good you don't wanna be with anyone.
You seek for love, you wanna feel you are valued you are important to someone. It makes you feel secure it feels like home you feel safe no more vulnerable no more anxious you feel happy around the person you love. Just a sight of this person makes you wanna go miles. For this single person you can cross any boundaries. You are not scared now you just want to be this one person your life revolves around life of this person. You try to lure this person. You celebrate this person's presence you wanna be around them all the time because of how they make you feel. The bare minimum efforts from this person fill your soul with joy you connect dots you remind yourself that how this person do things in a way no one has ever done, you fall and fall you keep falling for them day passes and your feelings grow stronger towards them. So caught up in your own little world you try hard to make this person smile you do all you can do to make it work.
Everything you do directly comes from your heart you can't fake love, this thing is real. It happens to you when you least expect it. Its the truth you love by your heart you shut your brain you just follow your heart all the way you followed it and this lead to the happiest moments of your life. Your joy comes from this one person you have forgotten how it feels to be lonely you are no more depressed you don't feel low it just gives you joy you experience butterflies in stomach.
Ever imagined how hard you work to make this person smile? You make excuses to be around them you make yourself free for them you became available ready to be with them all the time you don't want them to be lonely you want to take all the suffering of this person. You try to solve all the problem you make everything available for this person so indulged, just because of the feelings cause you feel cared around just to experience this feeling you pour your heart out open in front of this person.
It's a blessing when the feeling are shared between two person. When both feels same thing same way. It's different when both have same vibe for each other. However what about you got betrayed or you are the only one who's in love. This brings agony.
Now reality hits you. You see everything clearly efforts was never the efforts it was nothing you didn't meant something, you was just another normal person. You was not special your extreme efforts didn't counted. It meant nothing to that person. You are now broken you feel the pain you feel alone you want to go back to them. You want to tell them how much you love them you want to ask them to be with you. The questions keep coming why they can't be with you why they can't see the love in your eyes why? Your agony takes over the love you hate yourself you hate your feelings how you can love someone who fakes it all how you was so foolish that you didn't understand the difference how come you didn't noticed that it was not love how come you felt was not true how it was not meant for you. Even so you can't control events of your life. You're not responsible for other persons action. You did your part your love was pure. You can't ask them you don't want to love anyone anymore you like being alone. No one can understand your pain your agony its you and only you who suffers after breaking your own heart with your own expectations. One sided love never comes easy it's always the hardest but the purest form of love, you love someone with all your heart knowing that the other person will never love you the way you love them. I know nobody can share your pain or suffering however just remember this one thing before any one love yourself set you as your first priority.
Real love brings security,assurance, stability in your life. You doesn't feel anxious you feel complete you do not ask for reassurance you feel it you grow with it.
