Best friend👭👫 the one person in our life whom we search for 

when we are happy and want to dance like crazy,getting bored and want some entertainment,wants to share about first crush and that cheesy proposals,wants to do loads of gossips about the one person we both hate or cry our heart out.

The one person who knows everything about us.

If I talk about myself,I have best friend at every stage of my life.From childhood playground bestie to that seat partner bestie to that neighbor bestie to that Fb bestie to that college bestie,the list is really long.

I don't know how many times I have used the terms like #bestfriendsforever or #bffs and to how many people.

This forever word is making me smile right now (sarcastically) because nothing in this life is forever.

Let me share one scenario of life that I had experienced and I think many of you can relate to it- I passed out from school and was ready to go to college.My best friend was going somewhere else and I was going to some other place.That feeling of being separated was miserable,we were crying badly.Than finally we reach our hostels.We talk on phone daily and share our whereabouts.That daily call get shortened day by day,than the time came when we were talking  on birthdays only.Meanwhile I got one  best friend in my hostel.She ditched me and I missed my old friends.Than I got one more best friend their.In the same way many friends came and make the moments beautiful.

Graduation was getting over,again the same feeling of separation came and we cried.I came back in my town and start forgetting to talk to the best friends I left out.

May be I am too selfish but I think I never forget them,I always cherish moments we spent together and is always their when they need me but i just can't be connected to them through phone all the time.

Now one question always arises in my head- 

Is my best friend know everything about me??

I think she/he should know even a small thing about me.

But there isn't any single person in my life that knows everything about me.

Yes,I do share things but my best friends are changed so much that so many parts of my life are missing to them..

May be if they all meet together,than they can find out the whole thing about me.

Nobody has told me this but at this hour when I am writing this,I am finding myself a very BAD FRIEND.

To be honest,I don't really share some things to my closed ones also due to some trust issues.This trust issue came in my life when one of my closest best friend betrayed me.He makes fun of me and told very bad things about me in a new different place using my secrets that only she knows.I was just speechless that time and I just feel badly betrayed.That was a difficult time for me and I was not really ready to make any best friend.I have forgiven her also but that mark of being betrayed depress me today also.

So,there isn't a single person in my life who knows about me from start toend.I can't count my all the best friends as my best friend.Thus I don't have any best friend.

The one's who have that one person in their life is really lucky.

I sometimes feel that am I the only person who doesn't have a best friend?