18/10/2020

in my opinion life never gives what I want, may be we can put it like this that “ I never recognized what I wanted” . What ever I want are all above the board as my life can only occupy a small side of board, well I am not totally happy because it's the life where we can't be totally happy or sad. Even in darkest night we have stars that comes as happiness and vice varsa. 

   Hence be happy in what you have and even become sad when you should. If you become totally happy then it's called as Anxiety and in case of sad called as Depression.

“ I DON'T HAVE ANXIETY OR DEPRESSION ”

          Because I am moderate my life is moderate or in other words moderate life is perfect life like the balanced life. 

I have never imagined that I can write this much in one go, but  I am writing today so what all dreams I have seen can never be true I thought,  but I may have chance to make it true so I will never loose hope nor I will become crazy in dreams and behave like foolish, From now I am going to behave wise.

Behaving wise is not about showing off because it's about behaving proper, Behave proper and be happy because everyone in life wants to be happy, every hardships they undergo in the process of becoming happy , well even in tiny prayers they ask about the things they need and they also lead to their happiness. How much ever we may ask or do at last we get what we should.

Phewwwww…..

 This above is from my incomplete diary I wrote quite a time back and at that time it was lockdown I guess, then my dreams and the struggles in the way to make them true, was killing me. I never know that I could become such depressed in life and couldn't share also. so I took book wrote date , then started writing the thoughts I was having in my mind.

I was not such emotional person but some situations made become one, the above whatever I wrote was same as it is in book which I wrote some time before, to be honest I have many things to write just a page I copied and retyped over here. 

let me know how it was and if you also have experienced same let me know in comments,

Thankyou💖