Dear maa or aunty. I don't know what to call you now. I still would like to call you maa but situation is different now. 

I really miss you. I sincerely do. I have spent really good 10 years with you. You were never like a mother in law to me. We started in a weird way but quickly started liking each other. I really respected and adored you. I wish I didn't have to lose you with the divorce. I am sorry your son and I decided to part ways. It might look like a bad decision at the moment but trust me it was important for our sanity. It doesn't make me love you less even though you are really angry with me for initiating the separation. Wish you could see why I took that decision. Your son was not always right. Walking away from a comfortable life and loving inlaws was not easy at all but I gave priority to my mental health which was silently suffering since years. 

I miss the family I created with you. I was very lucky to have you as my mom-in-law. But it wasn't meant to be I guess. I wish I could talk to you once but you wouldn't. You called me your daughter but I guess it was just for namesake. You probably did not mean it, as quite naturally I was connected to you only through your son and you would give the priority to him. But for me you are still my maa. I love our long everyday random chitchats, the gossip and the heart to heart talks. I also miss the home. It feels strange to think that I won't be visiting you ever again. I miss all of it. 

I miss the way you pampered me. You never let me work in the kitchen. You took care of me like my mom. I guess I owed you much more but I unfortunately let you down. I am really sorry. I hope someday yo would realise the girl is not always wrong. She doesn't have to sacrifice always in a relationship. There was a reason behind what I did and the decisions I took. 

I know I will never find someone like you again. Remember I will always love you, miss you and respect you no matter what. I am always praying for your happiness and long life. I hope you miss me too.