Someone once said we all have weird heavy feelings so we should not be bothered by it, is it so?

Why do we always try to suppress our weird feelings (those feelings we don’t like)? Why we don’t talk about stuff we are bothered about or we don’t like?  Why talking about stuffs we don’t like is so weird (I couldn’t find a proper word)? Why we are always said to feel good when we don’t feel good?

I have these questions a lot like why am I told to feel things why people around me decide what should I feel or what should I not. Why can’t I feel what I want to feel why can’t I be what I want to be.

Feeling bad about stuffs or feeling randomly not good is okay. TOTALLY OKAY. I know we heard it so many times that feel whatever you want to feel do whatever you want to do but trust me we can’t there is always a nagging voice inside our mind that we are going to get judged or suppressed or whatever synonyms fit here. WE started bottling up our emotions now, in fear of being judged or we are just in our social anxiety phase. 

FEW LINES FROM MY FAV POET (ERIN HANSON)

YOU CAN WRITE FOR HOURS ON HOURS

OF ALL THE THINGS THAT YOU WISHYOU COULD BE,

BUT THE TRUTH OF THE MATTER IS SIMPLE,

PEOPLE ARE NOT POETRY.

I don’t think they relate any way here but I felt adding them here and I did, before starting this blog I actually gave myself a pep talk that I would be totally honest here and I am planning to stick to it as long as I can. Am about to complete 300 words now (see the irony the number 300 is the 300th word) *unnecessary talks*

Back to my topic, that heaviness on your heart is not something you can avoid or is not something you should avoid, holding onto those emotions is going to suffocate you, will make you feel helpless and talking about it will surely make some people think you are “Attention seeking” but sweetpie you are not, you are “Support seeking” maybe not support too just comfort? Or maybe a feel of being anchored to someone or just there is someone you can hold onto when you are about to sail away in stormy waves. How can you believe into something such? Cause even when I say am anchored to someone I get scared or I just push them away cause you just are so used to handling things on your own someone entering the thin membrane of your heart gets scary.

How should we deal with people In such situations, honestly even I don’t know I keep getting into loop of this weird cycle of letting people into and out I am scared am so scared of those who are close to me right now what if one day they decide to just walk away what if things don’t turn out well what ifs trust me these what ifs are the poison which really is going to kill us someday (Not actual death you know what I mean) Read somewhere “WE EAT LIES WHEN OUR HEART IS HUNGRY” I do mention quotes a lot but I really can’t put good words to my thoughts so am gonna use these to portray whatever I feel am going to conclude this now cause I really don’t know how messed up this will turn out now.