It is the second last month of the year and I wanted to tell how it went the previous day but then I didn't log in because of the rain with extreme thunder and lightning. That is how the month of November began for me. 

When October started with the level up, November felt like it has been intensely toned down even though it has only been three days. Though there are a lot to do, it is starting to feel intensely dull day by day and a lot is slated to happen this month and that also involves making big decisions. the reason why the decisions are being put on hold is because of the lack of self independence or self sufficiency; something I wanted to achieve by the end of the year and haven't reached half way. 

Being 24, I still haven't achieved financial independence that I can't really rely on myself at the moment especially with the financial stability, but otherwise it is fine. 

The weather is also another disheartening thing as mentioned earlier especially when you have to travel for class but even in class nothing productive is happening. There is no motivation to do what you wanted to do even at home. I like to go out and the one reason I don't go out much apart from buying groceries and to class is the pandemic initially and the other main reason is the rain. That is the reason I don't go out much even if I wanted to. Even going to the relative's place is no fun as I feel restricted in a different space. 

So the last time I had dinner outside at a restaurant, that's when it rained really heavily with extreme thunder and lightning something I wouldn't have been able to deal with all alone if I was home where I have to unplug everything and turn away from the windows with no curtains to avoid lightning flashes. Because of the same, I had to remain for an hour after having dinner and left when the rain reduced. But then there was thunder and lightning acting as jump scares to freak you out. 

Today is Diwali and there are people bursting crackers and initially the sound made me think it was thunder and I unplugged everything initially. Later when I realised it was the crackers, I plugged back everything and at present writing the blog. 

So that's how the month of November began. Let's see how it goes. thank you so much for reading. I will see you in the next one. and Happy Diwali.