I am an introvert. I don't interact with anyone. I am reserved. That's what everyone says about me. Well, part of it is true but not entirely. I would say I am more of an ambivert. Partly hyper and partly subdued and it all depends on my mood because I am very moody as a person, not to be confused with bipolar because they are totally different. My moodiness doesn't affect my work so no worries. 

I want to be with people when I want to be with people and when I want to be alone, I want to be alone. I like interacting with people and that is something my job demands. I might not be that good at small talks but otherwise I can manage. Having said that, yes I am a very private person and I don't have too many friends. I know a lot of people but they are not all my friends. Not every co-worker, acquaintances, classmate are your friends. 

I am not that good at making friends because I don't trust people easily and it takes time for me to open up if I find them reliable enough, but I am good at being friendly. I am very comfortable being among strangers because no one recognises you (which doesn't mean I will sit among strangers or let them approach me. I like going out and seeing people (not to be confused with talking to them; just checking out). Though I have done a lot of it alone be it travelling, cafe hopping, or going to the theatres, it doesn't mean I don't want a companion. I am open to have someone accompany me but I don't want anyone for the sake of it. I might be shy while first interacting at an unfamiliar space but when it's on, it can be full on but the meter has to be controlled depending on the person.

I might not be open enough but I want to talk, not just about feelings and all, but every little thing which I find interesting at times. Be it an interaction with a barista, or an encounter with a pretty woman, or something I came across in city centre, or how I got a particular idea or a particular scene, or anything. Any particular thought which I thought I could share with someone and not just to someone random people. So I guess the only option I have as of now, is to write them down. Which helps to an extent. I don't want it to write somewhere and keep it hidden. Maybe share it anonymously, I don't know.

All I am saying is, sometimes I wish I had someone to talk to and not someone who would possibly ridicule me for my thoughts. That's all for now. Thank you so much for reading, I will see you in the next one.