Even after trying out different things, different ways, different lifestyle!….you name it!I have tried it! Motivational books, inspirational talks and positive talks but everything is in vain when I face the harsh reality! Let me know if you are able to relate to poem in the comments!
I am your good girl staying next door!
So it's hard to find me crying on the floor
As my tears can't be shown to the society
Even if am dying and struggling of anxiety
Am your perfect girl living next door
Not allowed to cuss or in anger roar
As my anger has no voice and is not allowed
My fuming rage within me gets drowned
No I don't drink or smoke ever in life
As ethics has taken me as it's dear wife!
I neither can pretend to be the best for all
Nor be the worst despite the harsh fall
I still try to keep the light of goodness in me!
Don't ask why I am good even it comes with a fee!
The world is strange all the time with weird people
They know when I can be easily be beaten purple!
Both in their words and actions I shrink in fear
Even after decades can't stop the falling tear
All become strong after being like me for a while
Yet I become weak although wanna be cold like tile
Being tied to this life with no real reason or purpose
With life never providing even a single rose
I wish it gives maybe a white one on my casket as I die
Or will anyone even turn as I end this journey and lie!
Living has become a task so huge to bear and move
Am being crushed so no music makes me groove
Just want to end everything for once and all
But who will ever pick me from this great fall
Where am hanging mid air just breathing
Neither living nor dying simply surviving
No joys that ever grace this life anymore
Life has shaken my broken soul to the core
I don't want to be the good girl again for anyone
But hating myself isn't my liking or fun
But life has its fun as I walk with strain and pain
And I live stupidly forever with no gain
I have struggled living according to everybody's standard that I have lost myself, my voice, my identity and peace in the process! I am at a stage where I can't find what I lost, can't breathe as everything is suffocating. Everyone is around to cheat and eat out of me what is left of me…
Anyone else who feels like me?
