For the last 2 years,  I was not able to understand that what is happening to me. Every morning begins with a lot of unwanted thoughts and feelings of sadness. I spend a lot of time outside my room, like I went to college, meeting friends, started working at an office, I tried so hard to spend my whole day in some works so that I can divert my mind from such sad thoughts. But at the end of the day, I was deeply alone and depressed. I was not able to tell about my problems to others. I was scared that everyone will laugh at my situation, because of this I never shared my horrible experience with not even my parents. I started forgetting every small thing of my daily life, I didn't feel hungry for 2-3 days. I spent my days and nights sleeping all the time. I was behaving like a robot who wakes up to do work and sleep. My best friend helped me a lot. My friend helped me many times. My friend always tries to refresh my mood and makes me happy. But the happiness and good mood were temporary. After every few minutes, I was experiencing heavy and very rapid mood swings, which was unbelievable for me and my friend to understand. I woke up anytime from my sleep and started crying. While talking I become angry without any reason. I was having a strong feeling that I was having 6 out of 9 symptoms of depression. I started working on my body, my brain but I can't continue anything more than 5-6 days. I didn't tell this my parents. I don't want them to take any stress off this problem. I was fighting, alone with non-other myself, I was fighting with my brain, I was fighting with my undesired thoughts, I was fighting with my feeling and many more. And slowly I was used to living alone, I spend my whole day staring at empty things, I stopped working on myself, I was losing interest in those which I love to do the most. I started writing my thoughts so that I can express my feelings somewhere. One day my cousin came to me and she read that note in which I wrote my feelings, after reading that she asked me that is there anything wrong with me? But at that moment I was not having words to tell her that yes I'm very alone, I'm broken from inside, please help me. Still, I'm fighting with my thoughts with the hope that one day everything will become easy and normal in my life.