It is a total mess of emotions in a student's mind during this phase. For any graduation, either it is 3 years of degree or 5½ years of medicine, the final year is very very special. Why is this that special? Let us jump into that student's mind right now.

First, let us accept the fact that exams are scary but it varies in the intensity for a different student. Examinations set our minds into different zone though we are prepared or not. Our sleep, our eating habits, our free time, and our conversations with family and friends, everything changes right from the day when the schedule of examination has come out. Usually, this thing happens every time but it is a bit special for final year final examinations, let me tell you why.

After writing these exams,

• We are done with the college.
• We get graduated. ( happy and also nostalgic approach to this sentence)
• We don't need to touch all those books again (hopefully if we pass).
• We can't sit again in those lecture halls.
• Most importantly the undergrad life is over and we need to think seriously about our career and stuff. (job and postgrad)
• We will miss those stupid bunch of our friends and our favorite lecturers.
• Once we graduate, nobody sees us as a kid anymore.
• We need to earn to live our life decently.
• We become responsible for our own lives and need to get independent.
• No more pocket money if we start earning.
• The shield which was protecting us in the undergrad will be broken after these exams and life is gonna hit differently this time.
• We are so near to reach our goals and life is gonna settle soon.
• And the list goes endlessly………..

Yeah, you may think why I am feeling everything so dramatically when we can be students in the future too. But guys actual student life ends in undergrad itself, in post-grad we actually study and become serious about every decision. Mistakes in undergrad is a normal thing but in post-grad, it's a crime. Everything is viewed differently because we carry that graduated face everywhere. 

Most importantly we will miss our friends soo much, our journey of 3 or 5½ years of mischief has come to an end. We can't see their faces unless we plan to do so and topics of discussion will become mature.

I don't want to say this but really thank god for covid which made this separation a bit easier by habituating us to be far from college life. But I'm also mad at covid because we made fewer memories being far from all this. I know I'm contradicting my own statements because I have mixed up feelings for getting graduated.

So guys, if you feel my emotions let me know in the comment section :)  Take care and wish me luck for my upcoming final year final exams :)