I have always spoken what I felt. No sugar coatings, no flattery, my words come directly from my heart. So that is why I either love too much or hate too much. And once I care for you there will be no other thoughts until and unless you prove me wrong. I can turn cold hearted within seconds. 

This excerpt is again from the book of my life. I have a cousin younger to me, and I loved her always with all my heart. I am not good in maintaining contacts over phone, but I promise whenever we meet nothing will be changed. I told her about my life experiences so she could learn from my mistakes, I was always there to help her, financially, emotionally. When she was in class 12th she lost her mother to cancer. My mother stayed with he for months. But later on everybody decided that her father should remarry and as a result they got him married. Luckily my new aunt accepted my cousin and her brother as her own. She loves them with a feeling of their own. But all this while someone from my family started filling my cousin's ears resulting in constant fight between her and her step mom. I tried from my side, made her understand that someone has come into their family not to take their mother's position but to give them the same love. She understood and apologized to her step mom. 

Days passed and one day my relative said that now my cousin should get married. She was merely 19. She spoke to me regarding the same and I spoke to my mother. We encouraged her to study further but that relative of mine kept bringing more rishtas for her every single day. And one day my cousin said yes to a rishta. This time again I thought she is being forced so I spoke to her for over an hour, made her understand that nobody can force her into doing what she doesn't want to do. She listened to me patiently and kept crying the whole time. I felt pathetic. I even fought with my mother and she said why do you think your cousin is being forced to do this? She has agreed to marry now. We can say something only if she doesn't want to do it but here she wants to actually get married. 

The day approached and my cousin got married. The very next day, her attitude was all different. A shy, introvert, fun girl had transformed into an extrovert, serious, and a bold girl. Her parents were shocked to see her like that. She started answering back to everyone as if she was waiting for this. She called me and said that someone from her sasural was interested in me to which I told her I am not and she calls my mom and tells her that how much I am jealous of her as she is married now. According to her I even tried to break off her marriage as I advised her to say no to marriage and study further. She says I am jealous because she is younger to me and had gotten married and here I sit unmarried. She tells me how wrong I am a person because I didn't say yes to the person from her sasural. She tells me she loved someone and got married to him not like me who had boyfriends. Shocked to the core I told her to keep her mouth shut and never talk to to me like that. Now it's her anniversary soon and we are invited and guess what my mother is very excited about it and expects me to forget whatever happened but I told my mom my heart was never that strong, I can never forget her words. I would rather keep my self respect than be a part of their celebration.