Hi dear fellow bloggers. I took a break and now I am back, I will try to be consistent this time. Today I am here because I wanted someone to hear me out and I have no friends. I mean I have friends but they all are busy and I don't want to burden them with my emotions. I have been in a relationship for the past four years. The guy was great. But I was so desperate to be loved that I didn't realize I was giving him everything just so he can reciprocate it. I liked him, but gradually I started showing him that I care. I would drop messages until one day as I was busy I forgot to text him so this time he called. He got habitual of my messages. Messages turned into phone calls and it became our routine.

He started telling me all about his day and I sat there listening him. All this while both of us didn't notice that I wanted to tell about my day too. I was happy that I had become an important person in his life, but I was making sacrifices for it and slowly I started noticing it. I told him I liked him and he backed out. He said he wasn't ready for it. But instead of walking away I still stuck to him. And that was the worst decision I ever took. One shouldn't do this to themselves. I waited for him while things between us never changed until one day he saw me with my friend and lashed out on me in front of him. That day he confessed that he liked me. After 2 whole years that too because he saw there could be another man in my life and he freaked out. The guy who never wanted to be in a relationship was crying in front of me pleading that I should take him. You know what I did? I took him. I forgave him for he embarrassed me in front of my friend. All I wanted was love. Fast forward to today. It's been 4 years. Nobody in his friend circle knows about me. Nobody has any idea that he has a girlfriend. And now I am 27 years old. My parents keep on asking me to get married. Trust me I don't have the guts. Should I tell my parents about my boyfriend? How? On what basis? The person who has kept me hidden for years, who hasn't held my hand ever in front of anybody, who tells me that I am an underconfident woman who just wants to sit home and doesn't want to earn, how am I supposed to think of a future with this guy?