Okay so let's get real. You will read hundreds of articles online or books about good habits, how can we make our lifestyle healthy by opting some good habits and what not but now I think it's time to come forth and tell the world that no books, no articles, no depressing thoughts, no stress is getting me on tracks. And I am tired of this behavior of mine. Every night while sleeping I decide that I will get up early tomorrow, I have to get my life together. And I promise myself that I will surely do it and then I sleep after putting five or six alarms. Then the next morning when the alarm rings I turn it off and I go back to sleep. 

Then this conversation starts in my head in which I tell my own self that-"last night you promised." “Ya I know and now I don't care let me sleep.” “ Don't you want to get your life together?” “Yes! I do, And for that I have fixed my schedule I will sit for studying at 1PM so till then I have lots of time now please let me sleep.” “You can exercise, you can read a novel, you can paint, you can do so many things till 1PM. Get up please.” “Oh God! you are so irritating please let me sleep.” And with this I shut my own mouth. Then I wake up late, eventually ending up with every task done late and at times I have to skip my tasks. Then at the end of the day I sit with regret that I should have listened to myself this morning and again the same promises made and thus the vicious cycle continues.

Also I promise myself I will eat healthy, only I can take good care of myself (I talk to myself a lot) then the very next moment I am ordering some fast food. Because you only live once. I am tired of myself. I have no friends, no boyfriend, not a single family member close to me. So it's just me who does all the research, decides what is good and what not, or what to wear, what to say and to whom and again it's me who decides to ignore, who loves to stay in bed, who is lethargic, clumsy and laziest of all. This is war between me and me and I don't know who is going to win.