Hello! If you follow me or have read my blogs previously you must have an idea how my blogs are all about what I feel. As I take this platform to pour out my feelings, in a hope that even if they sound insane or relatable the people relating to it wouldn't feel alone. If you think whatever you think is absurd then you should know a girl thinks in the same way you do, so you are not alone. In today's blog I want to write about a specific language that we associate with intelligence. 

English is a global language and by global language it means that wherever you go you may find someone speaking English so the language wouldn't be a barrier. I haven't been to abroad ever but in our country only we do not think of English as a language, we think of it as everything. No matter how highly educated you are, what all degrees you have if you can't speak English then all your efforts go in vain. If I talk about myself, I have studied in an English medium school, but being a shy and an underconfident kid I always lacked courage to speak the language. I write English, I understand it very well. Also I speak it but while speaking my voice dwindles, as in the back of my mind I continuously doubt myself. I tell myself that I am using the wrong grammar and saying it all wrong. I am still trying to find that courage. I speak in English but with a fear. 

So lately I came to know that my friends call me dumb, they don't care about my marks, they don't care about how good I am in things, I stammer while speaking English so I am a dumb person. Though I am constantly praised for the work I do in office, but being called a dumb person because of the lack of courage really broke my heart. How cute we find foreigners when they speak Hindi, because we understand that Hindi isn't their first language. Then English also isn't mine still I speak it better than most of the people but I am called a dumb. So I am a dumb person for not knowing someone else's language? Who is dumb here? I speak, read write my mother tongue very well. I believe shame is when I don't know my own roots. I am practicing and will reach a point someday when my confidence will say it all, but I really feel bad for my so called friends.