IN THIS BEAUTIFUGLY WORLD EVERY OTHER PERSON WANTS TO MAKE A NAME FOR THEMSELVES. MANY OF THEM WORK HARD OR SMART OR THEIR PARENTS WORKED THEIR HEAD OFF FOR THAT NAME  . BUT THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO ARE YET TO FIND OR MAKE NAME FOR THEMSELVES OR THEIR FAMILY . WHEN I SEE THIS CUT THROAT COMPETITON AROUND ME I GET SICK CHILLS WHYY ?!  … UMM I GUESS I BELONG TO THE CATEGORY WHO ARE WONDERING AROUND NOT KNOWING THEIR NAME OR GAME.

I REALLY DONT KNOW MY NAME  OR ANYTHING ACTUALLY I NEVER THOUGHT I'D TAKE SO LONG TO DISCOVER THE PURPOSE I'M HERE ON THIS PLANET. MY PARENTS TOLD ME AND GAVE ME MANY NAMES BUT IT  JUST DIDN'T FEEL RIGHT . WHENEVER THEY CALLED ME BY THAT NAME I WAS ALWAYS LOST . IT  WASN'T ME . MY FRIENDS HELPED ME FIND ONE EVEN SUGGESTED MANY UNIQUE NAMES BUT I FELT INCOMPLETE AND TOTALLY USELESS AFTER THAT.

I ALWAYS ASK THE UNIVERSE HOW IS IT THAT OTHER PEOPLE GET TO KNOW THEIR NAMES SO EASILY LIKE THEY WERE BORN WITH IT ? BUT  I GET IGNORED, UNANSWERED . SOME SAY THEY JUST KNEW IT WHEN THEY HEARD IT ,SOME SAY THEY DEARM'T ABOUT IT, SOME SAY THEY GOT THEIR CALLINGS, SOME SAY THEY JUST WENT FOR IT AND IT FITTED THEM PERFECTLY FINE . NONE OF IT HAPPENED TO ME THOUGH. SO AFTER A LONG DISCUSSION WITH MY PARENTS AND TEACHERS WHO GIVE GUIDANCE  WE CAME TO A CONCLUSION TO ADJUST WITH WHAT I'VE GOT AND NOW NO MORE EXPLORING . SO I SETTLED WITH IT FOR 2-3  YEARS .

BUT IN THOSE COUPLE OF YEARS I WAS JUST DOING OKAY . I WAS NEVER EXCITED WITH MY NAME IT WAS FINE . BUT THE FEELING THAT IT DIDNT BELONG TO ME NEVER WENT AWAY. IT WAS INDEED HORRIBLE . SO AFTER STRUGGLING AND LYING TO MYSELF I FIGURED I WASN'T ACTUALLY HAPPY . MY PARENTS WERE DISSAPOINTED WITH MY CONSTANT UNSATISFACTORY AND REBELOUS BEHAVIOUR . I UNDERSTOOD THEM, HOW THEY FELT AS THIS IS WHAT WAS TAUGHT TO THEM WHEN THEY GREW UP . BUT I KNEW I WAS DIFFERENT AND I BELIEVED IN ME AND MY DESTINY THAT SOMEDAY I'LL FIND MY NAME 

ONE RAINY DAY I GOT UP EARLY , BAKED  SOME COOKIES TO SEND IT TO MY SISTER CONGRATULATING HER  FOR  FINDING  A NAME . ON MY WAY  IN A SMELLY DIRTY CAR PARK AREA I CAME ACROSS AN OLD LADY SHE LOOKED DRENCHED IN THE RAIN AND HUNGRY WITH A PALE FACE SO I WENT TO HER AND ASKED IF SHE NEEDED ANY HELP . SHE THEN REQUESTED ME FOR SOME FOOD SO I GAVE HER THE COOKIES I HAD MADE . SHE SMILED POLITELY AND SAID THANKYOU COOKIE GIRL …….WITH A NAME I HAVE NEVER BEEN CALLED . ALL MY LIFE I HAVENT HEARD THIS NAME OMG I FELT THAT IN MY HEART THAT THIS NAME BELONGED TO ME, INFACT IT IS ME, IT IS WHO I AM AND BEEN ALL MY LIFE . 

AFTER PARTING WAYS WITH THAT MAGICAL LADY I SAT IN FRONT SIT OF MY CAR AND CRIED HAPPY TEARS . I GOT SO EMOTIONAL IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO REACH HERE & FIND MYSELF BUT IT WAS ALL WORTH IT!! 

SO ANYONE OUT THERE FACING WHAT I JUST WENT THROUGH ITS ALL FINE ,GO WITH THE FLOW,NEVER GIVE UP ,KEEP FAITH AND YOU WILL FIND WHAT YOU HAVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR ALL YOUR LIFE …:)