It's been almost three years now as a mother of adorable naughty and human form of my heart my kid. This had been a beautiful journey as usually like all mothers but today what I want to share is “those  moments” special one's small one's that feather away all your stress, frustration, pain and makes you realize wow i love being a mom. pregnancy was actually a roller coaster ride of emotions and even health for me ..As it was first pregnancy fear and excitement were high. I wrote everything in my journal and even I created a mail for my kid with his name  then send every moment of my pregnancy to that mail and waiting for my kid to grow up and read every emotion of his mother while he was inside me even I shared all moments of his childhood all his mischiefs everything I enjoy with him. During pregnancy every women must have experienced all this. those first tests when you missed your periods and in excitement you check and test and that feeling when you finally saw those two red lines… amazing feeling right I do not know the words to express these feeling so I am just sharing. Then those initial bubbles when you first time feel something inside you , then every day after shower you check yourself your growing belly. Now comes the heartbeat moment in sixth week the first time you listen to that heartbeat remember this is the moment you realize that you are carrying a life inside makes you more responsible, more pretty isn't it ? while writing all this I am reliving all those moments and hope whoever reads this feels the same. moving forward to the dreams, every night you dream about a baby playing in your arms, someone smiling a cute little smile without teeth. You talk to your belly your baby inside and tells him the stories share your feeling , sing songs and you know he/she is listening and feels everything  which nobody in this world can ? right ?  

baby showers in India have some traditions and cultural values in which family prays and give blessings to the mother and baby that time makes you realize first time in life when you pray now someone in the world comes in your mind first even before yourself when you pray. Then last month of pregnancy becomes longest month of the whole time period, you cannot wait to see the gift that god is going to offer you your state is similar to a child who is having a birthday gift and wants to open it fast, everything else doesn't matter, and when you get that gift finally this is the thing that makes you fat which a girl never wants to become , this is the thing that changes your thoughts from a girl to women, this is the thing that gave you so much pain but still this tiny little thing this tiny little fellow you hold in your arms for the first time this is all worth it even beyond that. Then comes the time to feed recall that pain is it a pain or beautiful pain like a ‘Khushi k ansu’. moving forward with first smile, first holding your finger in his hand, started sitting on his own , crawling, walking, first word, first time call you mamma, initial mischiefs, initial toys he used to play , first shopping, first travel , initial festivals even first time when he got sick everything is like a book for a mother , a book that every mother can write on her experiences her feelings which a mother can understands and feels. Even this list and this writing has no limits i can share so many things even i must have missed so many things in this write-up. But what I haven't missed is the journey and thanks to god that  get to experience this and prays to god every women who wants to experience this must get the chance and deserve that too. 

thanks please read and comment but this time please be gentle as this topic is something very emotional and close to my heart always wanted to share this with every women so here it goes .