I love you but it has always been very hard for me to say it to you. I hope you know this feeling because it goes another way too; you do the same to me at times. I know you love me unconditionally and I know that restrictions are a must but always our egos collide even in this love. You buy me everything that I demand even if I throw tantrums at you.

You too get angry with me, but the next day you cook me a meal even though I go on a hunger strike. It is funny how I can write about my feelings for you but feel so embarrassed to say them in front of you. Tip - Please don’t be me.

but it is okay I think even if I don't say, action speaks louder than words. Right? You are weak right now fighting the disease and I have to look after you. Do every chore that you used to do for me apart from your own personal and professional work. My feet are in your shoes now, even though it is not my time yet, but everything will be alright. I can feel the pain that you go through every day and I can never forget how you ask me to massage your legs but I considered my work life much horrible (inside me is wishing for you praying that you don’t go through the pain especially before time and if then not alone)

I have huge respect for what you did, do, and are doing for me. We live for each other. I promise even if I’m embarrassed or shy to express my emotions in words, I’ll make sure that I leave no chance of making you feel special and loved on your special days but will try every day, definitely. But for now, I hate to see you or even hear your voice because all you do is repeatedly saying those words which I don’t want to hear, not disclosing those words though.

I don't want it to be that day where I stand in front of you with flowers and candles and you cannot respond. I have hated you on multiple occasions, even twice a day. But silly me little did I know some things are meant for rejection; quite a life lesson but some things were meant for me, obviously me being childish.

Daughter