Hi guys.

This blog is being written in a situation where I don't feel myself or don't feel happy and not a tad bit contented on being alive.

Have you ever felt why you need to exist in this world? WHY are you existing on this earth? Do you really need to be alive on this earth? Why should you survive a life you don't feel like living? 

I most of the time keep questioning myself. Am I worthy enough to be living? Do you need to be happy just to make sure that your co-existence is respected and felt worthy? 

I keep thinking of the time when I got to know one of my friends passed away by taking her life on her own. Something I never thought she could do. She was the most funniest , cheerful and bubbly person I met on this planet. That was the worst day of my entire existence. The day I started questioning myself and was being questioned by others. Everyone was so desperate for answers. Impatience makes us desperate, questionable. 

Everyone keeps telling to one another, ‘We have only one life, make the maximum out of it, enjoy the most’. It could be true and at times, I think its not. Why is said cats have nine lives? Why can't we? I guess in some cases, Especially when a miracle happens , that's when you realize , yup we do have nine lives too, probably.

It's said when you die, a part of you is reborn on some other country, which seems to be true. Heard of a doppelganger? Its basically a biologically unrelated look-alike version of yourself. Yeah these do happen.

I guess I actually swayed away from what I actually meant to write down; actually forgot what I thought to write. Writing and typing did make me feel better a bit, but the thought of facing someone still create a huge space between us, especially when there is a huge lack of communication between them. How do you communicate with someone who does nor want to talk to you, or more does not you to be existing? 

Have you felt that anything that way? I do need a lot of advice if you guys are reading this. I think I am having a mental breakdown at the moment.

Hm. So that's it folks in this blog. Support, care and show love and respect and talk your heart no matter how much the truth can be hurtful. 

See ya.