We all listen to music. Well, I had no interest in music until I went through my biggest break down. I started to search for something to accompany me. I tried sketching, editing and tried to read. But the I sucked at all of them. Then I got into a new job. Still, I couldnt find my salvation. Then I got my hands on my collegue's brand new ear gear. And that was the first time I got to hear the most beautiful song.  It was an old soft-pop sung by the famous Elvis Presley - ‘’I cant help falling in love with you''. Here starts my life.

Are you loneseome tonight - Elvis Presley

After listening to him I was already a fan of Elvis Presley. Then I got to listene to “Are you lonesome tonigt". It was sad and pretty much relatable to my story. It takes one and hours to reach my office and for a long time Elvis was my only company throughout the journey. Everytime Elvis hit the highnote he draws away my whole strength. But still I never removed it from loop. I was completely addicted to his voice.

Then I went through internet and I found other old pop songs. I get to know about some legendary musicians like Dean Martin, Frank Sinatra, Engelbert Humperdinck and Glen Campbell and many more. And then I found the second song of my life.

Its been a long long time - Kitty Kallen

I happened to meet a girl, my collegue Divali. It was her ID by the way. We happened to be on same team for 3 months. We bonded within no time. But she was sent into another team and our shifts never matched for next 3 months. I thought it wont work. But fortunately I got an opportunity to get transferred to her team. Coincidentally It was when I heard the trending song from the new marvel movie. I happened to listen to the the same song the morning I was about to meet her. And It went like “Never thought that you would be standing here so close to me”. It was a new vibe. Then It ended with " Its been a long long time..and I really felt It. 

Things didnt went far with Divali. And I was single again. Now, I was introduced to Indian musicians. I get to hear about good singers like Prathik Kuhaad, Anuv jain, Suzonn and When chait met toast. Then I found the third song of my life.

Ocean - Anuv Jain

This was the time when lonesomeness completely consumed me. I developed alcoholism. Everybody called It addiction but I named It copping mechanism. Anxiety was my biggest enemy and I was on the losing side. To recover my mental health I planned a trip. I got a suggestion. Ocean by Anuv Jain. The song is so calm and peaceful that can cure me whenever my anxiety episodes kick in. I can say that this song helped me handling my emotional outburts. And It still helps me whenever I feel unstable.

By this time I believed a trip helps me handling my emotional uncertainity. I went on another trip. I was sure but It wasnt a good decision though. I get to learn a lot but I suffered enough to go through another breakdown.

Anything thats part of you - Elvis Presley   

I went back to the beginning of the loop. Elvis came into my life once again. I was searching for something. A memory lost in the past. Unfortunately I found this song and there wasnt a night I didnt cry. The lyrics were harsh. But later I realised I was naive, reality was harsh. All I need was warmth. Stupidity It was. Who can bring back her, Harini, from the past. I never forgotten her. I thought I moved on and searching for a new hope. I was just searching for her replacement all along my life. This was the song that made me realise I can never move on.  I made a self-rule that I never going to listen to this song again. Irony is that giving up is the first thing I can do that too with perfection.

The final song

On my trip I get to know about new things. And one of them is Anime. I used to watch shonen anime in my childhood. But It was the first time I ever got interested in anime romance drama. Just because of a song. It was on my friend's playlist. He was a one of those whome I look up to. I never understood the lyrics and I never wanted to find the meaning. But the song was with us with every time I was taught by him, taken care, got yelled at and forgiven. The song make me recollect every memory I was with him. He taught me the best lessons of my life.

It was Nandemonaiya  from the movie "Kimi No Nawa".