You were a constant and now that you aren't, I feel a void. It's empty without you. Because when you loose somebody nothing is going to make up for the fact that there is nothing left but a hole in your heart where that somebody you used to care about lived it. Nothing and no one can replace you. That place will always be yours. I just be delusional telling myself that I'll get over it, that I won't think of you. How can you forget or replace a person you shared everything to all the beutiful memories all the love you had. I try avoiding to feel that but for how long. The pain, the void catches up.

I miss us. I miss what we shared. Missing you has been like a daily routine but I no more care to tell you because you made it pretty clear you want nothing to do with me. You want me gone from your life. I really go weak sometimes. My thumb hovers over the call button and so many times I have I have written a text and backspaced it. Everything makes me think of you. My day starts with thinking of you and ends with your thought. I dream of you every day. I go through our pictures. Snapchat never forgets to remind me of our memories. I wish I could tell you how much I miss you how much I still love you. I could never get over you. How much I miss your presence.the comfort we had. The hugs we shared. 

I know your side of love is gone. I do respect your decision but I don't respect the way you disrespected me and ended things without consideration of my emotions. 

Despite all of it I don't regret meeting you, knowing you, loving you. I still support you and your dreams even if you don't know. That doesn't matter all that matters is I wish you all the happiness and success and that I will always want you to get the best. I hate the fact that I could not be the part of you, your life your happiness. I always saw us together in future, that is the reason it's so difficult for me to accept your absence. I have to see that future crumble. I hope you think of me sometimes. That something happy reminds you of me. I really wish we could talk like before but that is just a fantasy. It hurts that you didn't even wanted me I'm your life. I'm sorry I could not be the person for you but just so you know you have always been my person. And I'm sorry I'm not a person anymore but a problem. Whatever it was that made me someone you loved, you took it with you. It pains me so much but I know that we have ended. There is nothing left anymore. I love you. I always have I always will. It's difficult living without you. I know I can I just don't want to. You have always been there for me, I wish I could be there for you someday. I know I've made some mistakes so have you but you made them the reason for not to be with me and I overlooked them to be with you. 

It pains me that you would do anything for the people who won't even do bare minimum for you but you would abandon and give up on the person who would never give up on you. Who would have never walked away. Your presence made everything beautiful to me. I wish I didn't have to keep all of this inside of me but I know if I would reach out to you I'll get hurt again. I gave you all I had because I had no one else to love. I loved way too much and that's where I went wrong. You never were scared of loosing me because you knew I'll be there that I won't give up. All that because I was always there, you took me for granted. That's the worst part about me I Love way too much and now it hurts way too much. The pain is unbearable sometimes. I miss you terribly. My heart aches for one last look, one last conversation. I wish I could be with you and the day won't end. I wish you would hold me in your arms and not let me go. Letting me know how it feels to be loved. I really miss you love. Wish we could have worked.