It's funny how you are expected to be okay with changes. How you are not supposed to get hurt or feel bad about changes. How you have to keep a straight face and pretend like you aren't noticing any changes at all. But dear child, so sensitive you are that you can't unseen all the little things. You always stand for yours words and you never change anything about yourself because you know that would affect other person a lot. But what happens when they turn a blind eye on you and change so many things that you are still expected to be like nothing has changed. 

Understand it this way: 

You have been living all your life in a chilling Antarctic territory and suddenly, out of the blue you have been put in the Sahara, in the most heated place on the earth and still you have to put a face as if you are still in your antartic territory. 

That's almost the same, the only difference is that you changed and changing so fast for me. You said you will always stay the same for me. Now I am scared if I should talk further or not because it may again get misunderstood as if I am counting flaws or anything. I am not trying to prove anything right or wrong, but only if you could let down that black layer and see things clearly. I seriously don't want to write anything because I don't want you to feel any less enough or as if you are hurting me too much. The truth is I have been hurt a lot in last one month, not by you but all the changes that have been forced on me. 

While you may read this, your inner critic may try to make you believe how all this is bullsht and how whatever it tells you is right or how it will try to convince you that what you were doing was good for you or how you should choose yourself over me and all sht manipulation your inner critic might be pulling on you. But NOW FOR ONCE, LISTEN TO ME AND BELIEVE IT, because I am not wasting my time in writing this; that fcking d*mn inner critic wants nothing good for you, not a single thing. It wants to see you miserable and it does that brilliantly by manipulating your thoughts. Whatever it's trying to feed you for last two months has been not good for us. It's trying to make you believe in things about me that aren't true. Initially we worked on it and you took the control back but now it took that control from you and especially in my matters it's very very aggressive. Whatever it's trying to make you believe may lead to the destruction of our home and I can't fight it behalf of you because all I can do is to not get defeated by whatever it does to you. I am going to be stubborn and won't give up in front of it but you will have to make choice, it wants to see everything bad about us but you will have to fight whatever it tells you. 

You already know what you have to do, choose me over it and hold on to it. Don't change yourself because of it because you have changed a lot. It makes you to be careless about me or see me as a problem who's not good for you but it will never let you the a person who is fighting darkness to be with you, who doesn't give up on you, who loves you more than anything, who wants you and who is dedicated to you. You will have to see it.