So yeah, what's need if getting mad about it? I want you to know that I am not complaining and while I am writing this I am in quite good mood because I have a hope that it will help you to learn something and it may result in change of your reaction towards me being expressive.

You know what whenever my expressive texts don't get treated as they were supposed to and instead make you mad, it hurts me terribly and I ask myself if expressing myself is really worth it or if I should stop doing that. But you know why I don't do that? Answer is simple because you are the only one I have and I don't have people to go to to talk about things I feel. 

So back to the question: what's need to get mad about your beloved who express his thoughts and feelings? 

I admit, sometimes some things can be stupid and very basic and that's why now unsend them. But not all. Most of times I open my heart to you and tell you to take a look at it and you know what I expect? (This can be your answer or learning point), I expect you to be kind to me to feel what I feel. I am a sensitive one and I feel a lot of things and I mostly tell you those things. But somewhere there are some lurking fears and uneasy feelings too that I want you to resolve for me. How?

It's really simple if you see it: all you have to do is to be calm and ask yourself what might be causing me to feel that way? There you will find a answer. All you have to do is just to remind yourself that just like you I am very messed up and when I express myself to you, I trust you with opening myself with my vulnerabilities and as we discussed long ago, we were going to respect and understand those vulnerabilities no matter how vulnerable those might be. So when I express my vulnerabilities you should remind yourself how you told me to make me feel mattered for everything I feel. You can sort it out within minutes instead of getting mad if you can just ask yourself how  can I comfort him so he can stop feeling this way?  I am coming to you that means it's about you and us and who else can understand or help with it, right? So why does have to go in mad way? You care enough about me then you should understand why I feel what I feel. And half of times it can be solved simply by putting yourself in my place and asking yourself how you might be feeling if it was happening to you? And you will know that it's really not that difficult to take care of me and make me feel heard and mattered and assuring me once in a while whenever needed. 

I do still express myself and I always want to be this way, I just hope that after reading this you will learn something that may result in you not being mad about me expressing. There's no need to withdraw, hold back or anything if you could be just kind enough and treat me as if what I feel matters. And if there are times when what I feel or think is wrong then instead of you being mad about it, it can be simply worked out if you can prove those things by instead telling me things that are true. Because I know not everything I think or feel is true or right but how am I supposed to know? Only when you will tell me! So it's really easy my love. No complications. Instead of seeing as a problem or anything, all you have to do is understood the origin and eliminate it by telling me things I need to hear. 

Last but not least, just make me feel matter for things I feel and express and gladly prove things wrong if there are. I don't express myself with any intention to make you mad. I can't control your reaction love. But by considering some points you can change it for better cause. 

There are so many things I want to talk about but I hesitate because of the thought of you getting mad about them instead of understanding and helping me with them. I wait for a good time and opportunity for that but considering current times you are barely there with me for enough time. So that's why instead of leaving any long texts that may make you mad or get misunderstood, I wait for you to be with me. I hope you will work on this little issue because if you will keep getting mad about what I say, feel or express then someday I may just stop doing that and I don't want to do that and that's the only reason I am still awake (1.29 am) and writing this. I want you to make me feel confident and comfortable enough so I can express anything and everything without any second thought or fear of you being mad about it. As I said if there might be something different I want you to prove it wrong by telling me things that are right so this way I can be aware and learn about things I don't know. 

This is it. I hope it will make difference my love. I am wrapping this up with huge expectations. We can be much more better when we communicate effectively. You are allowed to be mad on me in general but just try not to be mad about what I feel or express because it all comes from a very fragile and sensitive part that is afraid to be broken so it trusts you taking care of it. 

Also, whenever you will be done reading it let me know in our chats what you think or feel about it or if I was wrong about something. That's the ultimate purpose behind this so we can establish healthy and effective communication where we talk express, talk and share things without making anything complicated. Eyes are heavy, I have been waiting you to come after evening but you didn't (will discuss it tomorrow with you). 

Lots of love,

Yours and yours only.