It's so rare to find your home in someone when you are going through the worst years of your life and how blissful it is when you become home to another person for the same reason. You can't anticipate such things because these feelings or connections doesn't happen with plans, but when you share your vulnerabilities and dark fears and when all of it feels mattered by someone and still they choose to embrace and adore you. Sometimes people always misunderstand it with being contemporary love but as long as I know, finding your home in someone and the feeling of belonging to them is the most purest and genuine form of it. In this matter some people get very lucky but then their fate has different plans for them so it throws them into a dark pit where they are barely a few feet apart from each other but still can't see, hear or feel each other. It hurts to exist in that dark pit because you are scared of you will ever listen from them or just because they couldn't see your efforts or hear your voice in that dark pit, they may assume that you might have gave up on them and they will walk away. One of my worst fear is that person walking away without knowing what you have been through and how badly you are trying to find a way to communication. You are going to some apps to write three liners to drop some hints for them or sending signals through ‘archives’ in a hope that they will come and see or read all of these things. 

What if they just don't want you anymore? What if they are done with you? What if they may have made their mind to never contact you or have pressure and fear of someone of they will do that? What if they want to come to you but can't? What if they still care and worried about you as well but they won't be able to get any signal you have been sending through different ways? What if they still love you and want to be with you for comfort and feel belonged to you but they are holding themselves back because they are very scared to do so? And worst of all (I hope it's wrong), what if they are not even thinking or missing you and just carrying on with their life and are relieved that you are not part of them anymore? (Just overthinking and generalization of things that can be only known by any form of communication.)

You are missing that home now no matter however things have been going on for last couple of weeks but you were still managing to work on it and you cared enough to hold on to the days when it felt impossible to do so and even sometimes they said it was all over and still they stayed with you because they belonged to you. At the end you always choose each other over any other matters and this time you will be doing the same and hope that other one will do the same. It's like there are the satelite who have lost their path and having troubles to find their trajectory and every single day you are going to send signals in a hope that those signals will get delivered to them and then they will get fixed in their trajectory once again. 

When they will read this, will they able to feel the passion in these words? And the desire to be with them again? Or is it just too late now? All you want them is to stay anchored to you and keep patience for some time until things will get alright. I hope they will feel everything you are feeling and understand how bad they are missing this home. 

You won't stop waiting and hoping them to come back home where they belong and no matter how many years it may take, you will always be there within the reach because you aren't going away of walking away from it. You will keep sending signals or make invisible attempts to get to them through your words. I hope when they will read this or get all signals through archives and Haiku and I hope they will let you know that you are being seen and heard by them.