Hi, this is Anamika. Today is supposed to be the most special day of my life. Its my wedding today. Everyone around me seems so happy and engrossed. All getting prepped up for the event tonight.

Rohit and I have been dating for eight years now. We met at our work place. After being friends for one year it was I who came up with the idea of getting into relationship and straight away proposed him and yes it was a no from him. He liked me but as a friend and cannot see a girlfriend in me. But after repeated tricks and trials that idiot finally realized that he liked me too,as more than a friend.

Like Every other relationships our one was also filled with a lots of drama, breakups, patchups and all. Altogether it had been an emotional rollercoaster for last eight years. 

I always wanted to marry him so was he. And today it was the D-day. Both our families were happy with our decision and everything was going as it was supposed to be. Any other girl in my place today would be the happiest girl on Earth. Who won't be happy when you marry the man you love and your parents support you too. What else can one ask for?

But the scene is not the same with me. I am having y strange feeling inside. Deep inside I am wishing to just escape from this. I am not prepared to leave the home I live in from last 29 years. I am not really ready to call someone else “Maa”. It's not acceptable to me to just change my lifestyle. I don't want to prioritize some other family over my own. After a day full of hectic events at office and get togethers at friend's place and dinner dates with Rohit , I want to return to my mother. Her caring face which tells me I am the most important one, is the only thing that matters to me. I don't want to leave her for ever and settle for a new life. I want to escape. I want to escape from this marriage, from this irreversible change, from this commitment. I want to escape into freedom, into the wilderness, into loneliness only to return back when everything is over. 

Now when I think back I blame myself for choosing the relationship. It's not about Rohit. He is the ideal partner any girl can ask for. It's about me.  I am the problem here. 

I can hear a knock at the door of my room. May be the parlour girl has arrived. I have to get ready now and look my best today. 

See you next when I become Mrs. Anamika Rohit Verma. That's all from Anamika Bhattacharjee.

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