I am bad at preserving relations and this is because i had fear of losing things. So the rule hit me that if you have nothing then you left with no fear of losing. And above all i am very bad at let the things go as it puts me in the past to search for the mistake for the lose ends "middle class house boy" is my story. 

Against all odds and adversity, I breathe, have courage to fight, have guts to look in the eyes of myself, this is just because of my friends. Very few of my close one knows that there was a time when i was at my ground zero and what ever guts i had at that time, i put it together to end every thing but a call came from my friend Naveen and he said "reach delhi then we headed to an adventure trip" the authoritative voice shook me and i compelled to follow the order. That was another story, that I'll describe later on. That call saved me and abstain me doing the horrible. That guy saved me many times. Another friend of mine Brijendra this guy came when i liked a girl in my school but i have no guts to tell her that guy arranged things for me but fattu will always be fattu, and i am not able to speak single word, and he got frustrated and mad at me. When all mates mocking me he is the one who stood by me. Sandeep , Prafull, Aman, Siddharth, Sanjeev, Saurabh, Twinkle, Shreya, Supriya, Shiv, Deepanshu and i have great memory with every one of them. I have many friends, actually not many, to whome i can call friend, who helps me to push and lead this life till now. But now they are busy in their own lives. Apart from this i always want a friendly relations with my dad, which never happened that's why i call myself a complete failure. I tried hard to build that but its like building a castle in sea beach and that's how i lose my friend because i never cared for precious that i already have and the relation i tried to build was never wanted by other side.

Thank you for reading and living me hope to write. This is deep narayan supported by friends pressurised by family.