I started my journey in candlemonk because I wanted to share my emotions anonymously without any judgement and I am grateful to have started such journey. 

My first three blogs disappeared I dont know why, but those were my anxious thought, my mind trying to find peace. I am grateful for those who read it, I did not save it so I cannot republish it again but I felt nice when I jot down what was going on my mind.

I never had a habit of keeping a diary not a very good writer nor my vocabulary in English great but I started writing few poems before graduation and I had a feeling of calm and peace when I wrote it. 

I am an anxious person with overthinking habit, so I get stressed over little things. Trying to share to some of my closed friends or roommate made me feel nice but I am always scared of them judging me or talking behind my back.

Candlemonk open up an entire new world for me, I even encouraged my sister to join. Even when I am tired or anxious going through random blogs or reading my own blog has become my habit and a stress reliever. I have come across many helpful blog to calm being anxious, I am very lucky and grateful for such people sharing their thoughts and tips.

The society has started to slowly to accept mental health and awareness, generation these days has finally started to bring changes and I am so grateful for that. 

I may be just randomly writing what is in my mind, but as long as I get peace I am happy to just randomly jot down what is on my mind.

I hope those who are going through any kind of journey similar to me find peace jotting down the thoughts. It not only just give me peace but it also helps me to process the thoughts that I am having, and it helps me to calm down. When being stressed and anxious the solution that is just in front of us are even hard to find, so calming oneself down really help, even to talk or ask question.

I wish I could jot down very artistically but I hope to improve as days goes by.

My journey to healthy mental health will stop only when I stop trying, I know my journey will not be easy but no one's journey is easy. There is no shortcut to success.