The story resumes in 2021 where we all were stuck again by the secod wave of the pandemic and this time the wave was more rebellious than previous one. 

One year down the line during pandemic I wasn't able to figure out what was I actually upto.  And where was I heading, particularly in what direction but social media made me realize that it wasn't the right path to follow that I was following so like everyone else your decide to get on a physical fitness journey and so I did, soon I enjoyed sweating a lot and everytime I sweat my dopamine were at the highest so I decided, why not to make this a regular thing!  Because why not?

Let's get that kim kardashian booty when you are actually stuck at home and the fact that nobody else will able to see your hot transformation but yourself. 

So the point here is that I eventually made upto my physical fitness goals within months of getting into it. 

Solely on the basis of my consistency and sheer hardwork that I use to do putting my heart and soul into it.  

Eventually over the period of time I got obsessed with my regularity but little I know that one cheat day over exact three months will push me off the wagon for like 6 months. No I wasn't unproductive for entire 6 months down the line but somehow I couldn't be able stick around for longer time and that's what I loved the most. 

I figured that my workouts do made me really content but it was my persistence that gave me my sense of accomplishment and then I often use to read in books and heard while listening to podcast the miracles of disciplined and me being like,"yeah I know what that feels like, I know, and I loved it".

That's when I knew I had to take a plunge and start all over again but this time with greater responsibility on both the shoulders one for myself and one for my career. 

Well, indeed i was persistent, extra hardworker and the only end goal i had in my mind is that this time NO GIVING UP and no I wasnt even ready to take a healthy break that felt like a wastage of time. And you know when that happened you my friend are stucked in a toxic positivity and to be even more precise I was in unhealthy relationship with myself. I was in toxic positive mindset. 

And yeah you guessed it right I got stucked again, and this time the mental health was not that great. I was even the worst place before and just then I felt like wait a minute, where did I do it wrong?  

And figured it out what was actually wrong with me and this is an important story to tell. 

I was all ready for the accomplishment of everything I do but I refuse to ask myself a question that,  do I really want it? What am I doing is this for myself or do I want to show the rest that I am the best? And was this even the healthiest route I have chosen? 

I decided to educate myself a little about where to start, how to start, where to keep the bench mark and try to take a deep insights of myself through journaling and it indeed provide me a profound insights of me. And oh, by this time we are in the year 2022 month : january 

The entire month of January I took  sankalpa to journal everyday and turns out I did with full of my will or even sometimes again the will. 

I decided to play again but this time one thing at a time I made my workout and yoga on track, next I fixed my early morning cycles( that thing was wrecked for months)  again I meditate straight for 30 minutes and this was the progress i took in the month of January within the period of one week every the week I add new next thing to do with regular journaling. 

You see whatever is that you do its very important to take a little insights of yourself, and ask yourself a question about how you are feeling with what you are heading, is this what you really want? Or do you like it with some alternation or else you don't want it anyway. 

The answer that you will get will help you in longer run. 

I am not saying my journey of setbacks have finally over and “yayy”!!! I finally made it to my way, “NO” It isn't the case and is actually with one of us. 

We are still making our ways through something or the other and will always be. Sometimes we may have to through tunnels where the road seem endless and pointless and dark but eventually will get through it and yes we will because there is no other way we could get through darkness 

The key is to go with same speed each day….