Oh god! I am super anxious. I don't know what kind of surprise await me. I am looking outside the window. Birds are returning to their nests like me. Every bird maybe not successful to catch its prey. Who says some are very happy and some are too stressed. Oh! not again. I have to change my mind but now it is impossible for me. The sun sets down and my confidence also. I just afraid to be a failure. If my decision turns wrong, my whole life going to a mess. Then what to say to me.

        I don't want to be a regular man. So, I quit my job. I want to create my own identity. I cannot make myself a slave of a foreign company. I want to be a dancer. I know it is not a big issue to be a dancer nowadays. But people treat me like a joke because they think dance is basically for women. Especially our Indian classical dance. Whenever I have performed Radha, my friends make fun of me. According to them - I am a man with completely masculine energy. So, I cannot play like this. It is against patriarchy. 

It is not. I just try to express our golden heritage of Indian culture. People are influenced by Western culture and that's not to be a subject of pride. 

   I make my mind. I must be a dancer and I will teach this auspicious culture to our next generation. I must fight for this because this is the time.

       There is no perfect time to start a perfect thing. We often think that we should start something specific on a specific perfect day or time. But I think if you want to do something then do it now. Because you can't see the future. You must live in this present. You have the potentiality, consciousness and complete energy to express your thought in the very time. Our mind has it's own momentum. We cannot control it, it controls us. 

         If we delay in expressive selves, we are delaying to improve ourselves. Time flies and we are going to busy with our life. We have forgotten that the very moment when we think to make ourselves differently. Then we regret it. We feel bad for that opportunity that we had missed. We will make excuses but the truth is I don't have anything to say to me.

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