This story began when I was sitting idle on my couch. I was holding my laptop on my lap while having an endless mixture of thoughts about my past time. While surfing here and there through the internet, somehow I ended up meeting a guy online. Neither I nor he has seen me in real life but I have no idea how a sparkling bond still exists between us. 

         It was normal talking to him, pranking with him, sharing laughter, playing games, etc. We used to just talk and talk so much but still did not know much because we never opened our personal lives to each other.       One day, I realized the fact that how frequently I began to miss his presence around me. I started to observe those little things that made me so happy to be around him. I initialized my overthinking by comparing my past and my present. 

Being a social butterfly, I used to be surrounded by people a lot. I had a lot of friends whom I assumed to be amazingly loyal and true to me. As any usual teen, I used to have a crush or love whatever as it doesn't matter now. You must have got an idea till now about the monotonous tone in these lines. 

And yes you are absolutely correct. I have been betrayed by my amazing friends. I was heartbroken by the most generous and important guy. Not being flattery about myself, but being a sweet and straightforward teen has forced me to drown in a waterless well. I was eaten by many snakes. Being treated as garbage that you use and just throw away is the worst feeling anyone could have. I was going through so many things that I used to beg for a single person who can just stand by me to give me a should to cry, ears to whisper my pain, and sympathy to console me. But obviously, I was left alone by everyone in this  world. I was not correctly treated by anyone I assumed to deserve the love of.

After facing so much injustice, I used to think less of myself. I started doubting my worth and as a result, lost my faith. Knowing the fact that no one was there to listen to me, I started to pen down my thoughts and finally got some relief from the hustle of the world.

       Coming back to the guy I was talking about. To some, I may seem to be a kid even at this age or some may believe me to be immature. But the fact is I just don't care. This guy has tried so hard to make me know my worth. He is someone who truly cares for me. Maybe some days pass when even I just let go of my problems but he does not let me do it. He knows that doing so will just add to the pain already laying in my heart. 

He is worried about my schedule, my health, and me. He knows to make me happy with his cute and silly things. The importance he gives me makes me so special that I have never felt. The faith he has in me is beyond my expectations. He constantly makes me realize my worth even after seeing me demotivate myself.

I have no idea how long this bond will exist. I don't know till how long we will be in contact with each other. I don't know if unknowingly, our ways get apart. I always have a fear in my heart that constantly alarms to me be prepared if I have to face a situation in which I somehow lose him. He is always there whenever I need him and even when I don't just to make sure that I am okay. I am scared that what if someday I need him because he would have become my habit and he is not there. I will again see myself drowning in that endless vacuum. He says he loves me and I believe him but I am too scared to open my heart to anyone again. I am as hell scared to get heartbroken even if he promises not to because no one comes saying that come close to me so that I can break you. 

               I just wish that this lasts as long as it can be. If he reads this someday, and I will make sure he doesn't as long as possible because I believe in a saying that praising too many results in getting the attention of the evil eyes, I want to thank him for making me feel so special. I want to apologize to him for causing him so much unnecessary trouble. I promise him to never leave him and support him until it becomes impossible. I want to show him my gratitude to support me in every situation and just believing in me so much.

Thank You So Much :)