Unlike others, till my school life I couldn't even write an essay in my own words. Since I am from CBSE board and you all have heard memes and jokes on this ( kinda funny and relatable), I could barely even talk to someone in english that was easy to understand because my grammar was poor, I was not even aware about the term "vocabulary" and yeah, I had a lot of distractions during me senior secondary years. So yeah, my journey of writing started in the college, one day out of the gloom I wrote a caption for my picture on the instagram on my own (obviously, I always wanted myself to be unique in my own ways, which in past I failed) after which one of my friend suggested me to write something. I started penning down stuffs in many ways, whether it was qoutes or poetries. My content used to be so vague that it would hardly make any sense to anyone who read the stuff, since I had no other talent or you can say nothing else to do I literally never stopped writing. After almost 6 months we had our college fest, wherein there was an event organised, named as "Open mic" to which my classmates suggested me to participate. Well this was my first time to perform or you can say speak in front of atleast 20 people. It turned out pretty well, but out of nervousness my voice trembled in the final round and I ended up getting nothing outta that event. I was so disheartened that it became very difficult for me to attend the fest happily. For few months I stopped writing, but this was something that made me happy or atleast carried the burden of my heart in my diary, and dew to this I started reacting even on smaller ignorable things. Later on I realised sudden changes in my behaviour that was not at all appreciable so I started writing down again, but this time I wrote frequently. Writing down frequently polished my vocabulary, sequence of describing the events and I think I am good enough at writing down poetries in hindi, english and (currently trying urdu). But one thing that I forgot to mention or you would have noticed if you read, that in my past I never recieved much support from anyone. So even if I wrote something great, I never got a heartily appreciation from anyone. Currently its been 3 years and I write alot too, upload it on instagram still I don't recieve any interest or appreciation from people around me but this didn't ever stopped me and I got an opportunity of getting my poetries published in an anthology and I have that book with me now. Even the closest one to my heart prefered to promote his/her school friends content but he/she didn't even had much to say about my poetries, quotes or blogs. So I observed this and asked him/her about this, and in return I was questioned with the term of being insecured and jealous. Nevermind, I turned 22 on June 22, 2021 and have decided to get over all the negativity around me. So I'll never stop writing but I've stopped asking for feedback (from close ones too) for me, nothing matters anymore, but my mental peace. Period!