Hey dear Best friend,

           Oh God! I miss you so much, but I think it's important to realise that you can miss someone and still not want them back. 

Well, I am sorry for behaving that strange and breaking up our friendship without any reason. And you only told me right how different I am from the world. So, that may justify my actions. But I am truly sorry from like bottom of my heart. Hey and you know what this thing is not that uncommon as people have name for it. It's called,  Mauerbauertraurigkeit - 'The unexplainable urge to push people away from your life, even your close friends.' and this is something I was doing from way back and maybe that's why I don't have much friends left in my life.😅

            And when I told you that, “I want to break our friendship, so don't contact me from now on” just on a message. You said, “ I'll be waiting for you right here, whenever you turn back, whenever you need me.” Man! That was the sweetest thing anyone had told me in my whole existing. Why you have to be this sweet. 

        You know what, in reality you were the unique one. The loveliest one. Tell you the truth, I had never met guy like you in my life before who was that caring, understanding and supportive. And since there are very few this kind of man left in the world, I might be not meeting someone like you again. I am so grateful that we cross paths in this very lifetime. 

             ‘We were just friends that spoke like lovers and that seemed to be enough for two people who were scared to love.’ I definitely miss that connection with you. I might won't be able to make connection like that again with someone else. God! After writing this all down to you, I am realising what I had lost by my pure stupidity. So my idiot mind thinking again, how amazing it will be if maybe someday we will be two people meeting again for the first time, Forgetting all my idiotness. But ‘We may not get as close as we used to be.’ and I can't blame you for that. I'll never forget how happy you made me. 

           I really appreciate all your efforts to just meet me last time and also remember, how cruelly I had refused it. I still receive your messages in my blocked folder. You still haven't given up on me, don't you! 

We never parted, but we will never meet again. Maybe we meant to be strangers with memories… 

        But hey, Even if we can't be together in the end. I'm glad that you were part of my life. 🖤

                  Your not so Best friend.