Is this how it is done? Just like that?

You leave. And I keep wondering how and when? I know it didn’t happen all at once we drifted apart slowly but now I feel so distant. 

It’s almost about 1 year and 6 months since we became you and I. And I am still stuck on you. It feels like yesterday when we drifted apart leaving me no time to react! I am astonished, vulnerable, devastated and a mess all at once and I don’t even know why?

Maybe I expected things to end differently I knew that we were not going to be there for each other always but you know what? I secretly wanted to be by your side always as a friend if not as the best one.

I mean I know I was in the process when it all happened it started with five calls a day to one, meeting every day to once or twice a month! And, it all faded to no calls and meeting for months! It all boiled down to texts!!! You hated them. Yeah, we started texting casually and then it all stopped. 

You have me in your close friends list on Instagram. But, guess what? I don’t feel any closer to you now. I feel nothing right now it’s like I am numb for a year and half now. I am tired of seeing you through these rectangles. I see you on social media having the days of your life all those laughs and giggles most important of all new friends, you are enjoying every but of it, aren’t you?

And here I am, still stuck on you. 

I wanted you to evolve with me but you’ve changed and how!? You’ve filled the space I had in your life. But, trust me I don’t take revenge. You’ll always hold a special place in my heart. I will always and forever have a lil piece of your heart in mine. And, if you remember which I am assuming you do when I say always and forever I mean it and I mean it honestly. 

But at the end of the day I've made a realization, a realization that should've been made years ago. I am complete with you or without you. I am enough for me. I can still be stuck on you and be complete and move on. I can still miss you and be okay and NOT want you back.

Love,

A.