It is my tale 
Is it the tale of everybody
Or 
Is it me who is suffering from this 
Or 
Everybody suffers that
I do not blame anyone
I did this to myself
It is my fault
Not to take stand for myself
Not to care about myself
Not to pamper mine heart
Everything is my fault
It is seems like
I am not hurting myself
But
Making the people around me happy
In the eyes of other
Which is right
But
To find happiness for myself
Is also not a crime

I want to be happy
But
Something inside me
Screams that I don't deserve it
Maybe I deserve all of this
Which people makes me undeserve
I try so hard
To help other people because
I have no idea to help myself
You have no idea of the pain
That runs through my veins
I have feeling the same
For the past several days
You don't understand
And I can't explain
Here is a real question how have you survived this long when you are so violently self destructive
It sucks
Because
For a minute I was happy
For a minute I was getting better
For a minute I had hope
But in a minute
I lost it all again
It's hurts
It's hurts alot
But i will keep it to myself so it does not hurt any more

Behaving like I don't care 
Pretending like I don't get offend 
But I want to say to you 
If you are extrovert
You have the ability to talk to others 
You have such art to make insulted others
There are some people
Who 
Have soft heart
Who don't want to insult you 
Those who want to get happy with you 
My heart is so tired 
Tired enough to cry 
Just because 
I carry it well 
But that does not mean 
It is not heavy 
You don't know 
I am carrying a storm inside me 
That kills me everyday

She does not talk so much now
May because 
Nobody listened to her 
When she has a lot to tell
You are so quiet 
You were so cheerful before 
What happened to you 
These kinds of question
I heard 
From the people 
Who are the reason for my silence

I tried to tell 
I explained my hurt 
And as a result got hurt 
So I adopted silence
Which is also not liked by all
Breathe darling 
This is just a chapter
Not a whole story
Give me strength