How beautiful is that 
You stay silent in the midst of crowd 
How beautiful is that feeling 
When you laugh for yourself
Crowd that doesn't belong you 
For say it is 
But it is not 
They say 
They missed me 
But really they?
They call me 
When they need me 
But why they don't pick up calls
When I need them 
I have a phobia of being alone 
I want someone's companion to take one step further 
To go somewhere
Why I am like that ? 
I understand all the emotions
Situations
Circumstances
Feelings of all creatures
But why they don't? 
Because they are human ??
There is always a lonliness that reside inside me 
Why I have to be stand alone in lots of friends? 
Why my old friendship did fade ?
Why I am the one who needs to understand?
Why I can't give answers to people? 
Why I need to be understand others feelings?
Why I am the one who don't answer because they get hurt? 
What is the point of fake loving  you show me 
When you don't miss me 
When you don't make me a part of your crowd
Why I am not the important one for someone 
Why I have to spent 5 years of life alone 
I loved everyone just the way I want to be loved by someone else 
Is loving someone so hard 
That you cannot make someone's heart 
So now everything comes to end 
I will not meet old people again 
I will not have to  stand alone anymore 
May be I have to ?
But there will always a feeling of guilt 
Nobody understood me 
Nobody wants me 
But 
Now I will search for the same personality like me 
I hope I will find him or her sooner 
I have a habit of laughing at everything
If I am crying
I laugh
If it is hurting
I laugh
But I am happy that 
I know how to forgive people
How to create your own way 
But I am bad 
At making people your friend
I want that kind of friendship
That people say best friend
Whom I can share everything
My worries
My happiness
My cry
My tears 
Someone who is pretty
Not by face it doesn't matter 
Beauty is something that reside inside of oneself 
It is about having a beautiful mind 
Beautiful feelings and beautiful heart
I am not perfect and rare 
But I am honest and real
So I consider it as a one of the main reason
Of not becoming one's friend
Kind souls have kind faces 
Even they are not Beautiful
What you instill in your soul
That comes on your face 
I come to one conclusion
Fight your fear 
It will make you feel freedom from everything
Learn to being alone 
Learn to say goodbye
Learn to being endurable
You will learn how to live life
God 
There is a request 
Please give me strength
Hope 
So that I can be able to walk alone without fear of getting alone