Woah…. ! 

It's been approx 1 month, I haven't write anything. So

Hello! 

I hope you all are doing great. And I wish each one of you is super fine. I know was not so active, actually I was reading all of your blogs but didn't get much energy to write. Or I should say I was unable to gather my thoughts together to write about something.                                         And I guess, it happens with everyone . Right? 

In that one month I was struggling with my own thoughts. I was preparing for my medical exam, though I didn't get much time to prepare because I got result in August and before that I was just focusing on my boards, but they got cancelled.😶                               That time I got mixed feelings, I was not so happy. And after that when I started preparing for my medical exam , I was scared, depressed, anxious and what not. Because medical or I should say science was not my cup of tea. But just because of my father I took science, like many other children do. 

But during that one month I realise I could have said no to my father, I could have stood up against his decision. But I didn't. Because I accepted it like it was my decisions. And for that I was working really hard to get that exam although I was not happy I was just struggling. 

Ok, so in that mixed feeling I got the exam and I don't know what's gonna be the result. 

But after the exam when I met my sister, she told me one thing she said “𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲, 𝗻𝗼 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗴𝗼𝗻𝗻𝗮 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗼 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗼 𝗼𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝘀𝘁𝗼𝗿𝘆. 𝗧𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀, 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗶𝗳 𝗶𝘁 𝗱𝗶𝗱𝗻'𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝘂𝘁 𝘁𝗼𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗿𝗼𝘄 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝘆 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗰𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝗮 𝗽𝗶𝗲𝗰𝗲 𝗼𝗳 𝗮𝗱𝘃𝗶𝗰𝗲. 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗻𝗹𝘆 𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝘄𝗵𝗼 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝘀𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀  , 𝘄𝗵𝗶𝗰𝗵 𝘄𝗮𝘀 𝗻𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿. 𝗔𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂'𝗹𝗹 𝗻𝗼𝘁 𝗯𝗲 𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼 𝗮𝗻𝘆𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴. 𝗬𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 𝗰𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗼𝗿 𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗲𝗹𝘀𝗲. 𝗦𝗼 𝘁𝗼𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗵𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗼𝗽𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗮𝘆 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗱𝗼, 𝗶𝘁'𝘀 𝗯𝗲𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗼 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗱𝗲𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀".

And then I decided to speak up for what i want. I agree parents always try to take every decision in our favour but sometimes it's okay to let them fall, so that they know, how does it feel to stand up again. And I decided i"ll will do what I want to…… now that I have taken science and got passed with very good percentage (92 percent… 🤪just showing off). I know I can be a doctor and I will but I m not gonna fall for any of my father's decision which he took for me. And trust me he says everything what he want me to do in such way that it looks like it's my decision. 🤔

So it's my life, in future I m gonna be the one who will be responsible for all the decision of today. It's better to take my own decision and if they didn't worked out I will abuse or curse myself only. It's far way better then cursing or abusing the people I love. 

On that note, I hope you will get what I was trying to say. 

Take care

Bye❣️                                                  •𝗔𝗱𝗶𝘁𝗶•