I hope you all are doing great. 

The time is 11:38 and the day is wednesday. It is the time when my family is scared of thinking  now what next. 

My name's Abhinandni and I am a student.An eldest daughter of this family also am mature enough to take my family's responsibility but at this point even I dont know how to handle such situation.

I have two siblings. The youngest one is mentally disable so whenever he get upset he use to beat us. Its really very dangerous to live with such guy who is not conscious as he can do anything to me,to my family and even to himself also. No one wants to expose such things because of which they feel ashamed. Its a shamefull thing for me that I cant do anything even i dont know how to fix it.Literally am crying right now because Its really very painfull to see my parents maltreated by my youngest brother and I cant do anything except seeing them misbehaved by him. He get more aggressive if anyone shout on him so we have to handle him calmly.During this he assault us badly .Today also he did the same and we all are fed up of this but cant do anything . Like everyone I also has a dream to move abroad to live standard lifestyle.I belong to middle class family. Still my parents support me to fulfill my dream.I started taking ielts classes in 2019. It took me almost 2 years to crack the ielts exam. Finally I got 6 band in third attempt .Its not like that I never lose courage in these years but whenever I thought about giving up My parents always remind me why I started.But while seeing my parents in pain I think I have to give up my dream.Sometime I also think that I should go so that I can support my family fanancially and can also do something for my younger brother who is doing B.S.C .But at the same time I think that family is more important so what would I do with that money if my family is not safe.I am regretting of not doing anything for them.May god give me patience and courage to take the right decision.Just pray for my family.

Have a great day!