Acha,

I'm always confused about how to tell all the things thats going on my mind. I don't know where to start and how to start. 

Do you know that I still can't cross the road without anyone else? I hold the hands of the person whom I am with, while crossing the road. But no one could give me the feeling of a safe place under those fingers other than you. 

When I was young, you used to roam around the town in that old scooter with me in the back seat. I was holding you so tightly from the beginning to the end. And I remember your ice cream shop. There was a refrigerator right? I remember sitting on top of it eating all the ice creams you made. No wonder why I still crave ice creams all the time. 

Your friends used to call me by your name. I was so happy to hear it like that. Actually I was proud to be your daughter. I still do. And I wish to hear that till my last breath.

Do you remember all those old photographs we have at home? I remember how you used to capture it. While Amma was doing all the makeup, you were hanging those bedsheets as background. And then you showed me the way to pose for those pictures. Well, it turned out be great. But Acha, in those photographs you are not there. Its only me. Now I wish to turn back the time only to take photos with you.

I know a lot happened in between. Things have changed. Situations have changed. You are struggling to meet the ends. I see it everyday. And it hurts to see you like this. I tried my best not to bother you. By keeping my life as simple as possible. I've sacrificed a lot for the sake of you. I won't make any complaints about that because I'm happy that I'm helping you in some way or another. But sometimes I feel like you're not understanding me. May be the reason could be the lack of proper communication between us. Even if I'm so close with Amma, you're the one I love the most. I wanted to tell you a lot of things but I can't. I think, the respect I have for you is blocking me to do so.

I want you to know that I won't let you down. Even if I'm struggling right now, I'll make sure to make you proud one day. Trust me, I'm your daughter afterall. 

Love, Ammu

(Achan,Acha in malayalam means father and Amma is mother)