Hello I am zhara gandhi and I like to talk about my life.

So when lockdown started it was normal at first but then it started taking a toll on my mental health. There was nothing specific to do so we(me and my family) just used to fight all day at sillest of things and it created lot of stress around the house. Slowly  My insecurities and self image issues started coming out. In my 19 years of life realisation struck me that I never had any hobbies as such or had any aim in life I feel, so when the whole world was locked inside the four walls I started delling with problems like' what's my purpose in life'. It became so terrific that it reached to that stage where we have Had seen nights Turing into mornings crying and overthinking.  

But one fine day out of boredom I just thought of painting one of my house's door. And quickly it became my stress buster and now whenever I am in some situations like 'i don't know want to do' or 'what is my furture' I just take my brushes out start painting in whichever part of my house.( I know I am not that great at it but what's important is it makes me in a better place)

And slowly I started exploring different things which otherwise in normal situation I would have never opt to do because of lack of confidence in myself.

One of the main purpose that lockdown gave me was GUITAR. (Little back story: my brother had a guitar in his junior college but then he never used it again and was lying in his room for years now.)   So when I got bored by going painting all time, I took the guitar and started learning through YouTube videos. Though I am still a learner, but let me tell you I am pretty attach to it now. Basically what I meant to say is it somehow gave me a purpose.

So ya this is my lockdown story. How it forced me to come out of my comfort zone and explore things which I wouldn't do otherwise, yes I can't deny that there are days where I don't want to do any productive work and just lay in bed but at least I got to know I can come back to my thing when I am lost in life. So I do agree that lockdown was though but not that bad, it did teach us lot of things.