This blog will tell you my present state of mind and my life which is going unplanned and  am afraid to take any new risk whether it is related to my job ,my career because i don't know how should i manage my job life and legal cases which i have filed against my Paternal uncle .Let me tell you the reason behind legal case ,My Paternal uncle murdered my mother 20 years back and he was jailed by court but some how the case was compromised and he was released from jail and i was minor by that time.  i am just stuck at the same point where i have started 3 years back There is no growth in terms of my career nor in legal cases. If i switch my job then i don't think other company will listen and understand my problem because in my present company i can take leave and could go to my native place and handle my issues that's the only plus point of working here. I thought of preparing for government job but I don't want to prepare for the same because after completing 4 years of engineering i no longer wanted to study anymore instead of all this I am not disappointed and i know i will become successful one day. I know this may sound you like stereotype to you but some how i wanted to discuss this with you so that i can be any help to you and i am also seeking for some advice which will give me some solution to my problem. I will keep on trying until and unless i will get justice. I know things will be difficult for me but these difficulties will only going to motivate me to reach to my goals. Writing 400 words is not easy when there are many things to discuss and you have no words to define them as sometimes words cannot give meaning or explain what exactly you are going through your life. Today i am going to apply for many job post as i can because i better keep on looking for the light in the ocean of darkness .One day we all die but until then we must fight with our atrocities. This is the time we all should wake up and get prepared for the problem which are coming toward as us. As someone said to me once that this life is not for enjoyment but to find yourself.