I am frustrated yes I am . ……

There is something inside me that is bothering me day and night, I don't know exactly what I want. I am continuously torturing myself by  asking why  am I eating oily food? why am I working in my present company ?? but I am ignoring everything and afraid to answer to my questions and I am continuously running away and acting as if everything is normal but nothing is normal ……..I am typing this blog in my office time because I am bored of my job all I am doing is complaining and wasting my time for few bucks .I am not working in the field I studied. so why am I working here? ??? because I am afraid to take risk and don't want to come out of my comfort zone. I love to write and read blog so I use this platform to express my anxiety and my insecurities. I should not press my thoughts infact I will going to revolutionize and work on them .I will try to understand my inner being by doing exactly what i want to do in my life. Yesterday i slept late because i was watching  YouTube shorts and there i i saw one video of shahid kapoor saying that everyone should do what they really like even if they are successful in that thing or not all that matter is you must do things just to make yourself content. I am going to follow zenyoga again  because i had seen its marvelous effect in my life  before but i always try to follow but i fail each time but i will not accept failure and keep on trying till i achieve it. Now i am feeling much releif after pouring my heart out in this blog. No one is perfect but we all should thrive hard to reach our goals and make best of the resources we have. I will become famous and successful one day i know i am very slow and dont like the changes but i promise that i will not get demotivated easily. i will keep on fighting till my last day of life and i am hopeful to find the meaning of my life very soon . In the last i want to say to myself don't just get upset so easily come-on i know that i can do it.