For the first time in months, I did not wake up to the thought of you playing around with my heart and instead of feeling light, I felt this heaviness nestled on my chest. At this stage, I genuinely don't know what it is that i want, I am not bitter, trust me, I am not but that doesn't mean that my heart does not feel like it is ripped apart from its home. Why did you have to come into my life and fill it with so much love that it is almost impossible for me to build back those walls again and never let myself feel the raindrops dancing or the sun caressing my face, like you used to. until you, I never believed in love, it was an alien concept to me. For someone who never felt what it is like to be cared for, tends to become used to washing away the dirt on their knees or nursing their health back on their own. But you had to come into my life and make me happy. Though, it was short lived. 

One day, you decided that you were not in love with me anymore and expected me to be okay with it because hey, at least you were not keeping me in the dark. For a long time, I believed that you would come back, you would realise that you still love me and always will. So instead of crying over how you almost broke my heart, I held onto that last hope that you would come back and we would fall asleep in each other's arms and call it home. None of that happened.

But to somehow feel closer to you, I have created a playlist of your favorite songs. Those are all that I listen to. Some are really heartbreaking and it feels like the singers took you as inspiration. The happy ones remind me of all the times you looked into my eyes and I felt the universe smiled at us. the sad ones remind me of how incomplete I feel without you, like a song unfinished, like a destination never met and a dream that never came true. But if we ever cross paths again, I would gift you a song with hopes that you would sing it for me.

Thank you for reading! See you soon. Have a fantastic day ahead. ☺️