On some days I imagine what it would feel like to jump of a cliff.

How I would stand there, looking down, taking in what is around, then I would look straight ahead at the setting sun, take a deep breath and step off as if I were falling on to my bed.

And I would fall, like a shooting star, hand spread wide, tumbling through the night, my heart in flames, my face turned up towards the sky, and watch the point I was at just moments ago, turn into a tiny speck of the sky grow smaller as the ground closed in.

I would feel the air, trying so hard to stop me, pushing against my body, steadily, then a little harder, making my hair whip and fall across my face, I would close my eyes, for just a little bit, breathing all the smells in, of the greens and blues and Browns, enticing me to stay.

And there would be waterfalls, falling stronger and faster than I was, just because they wanted to, and tree roots likes snakes, jutting out of holes and rocks, would try to fail in catching me, just to make me stay.

And maybe I would think about who I was, what I wanted, who I was men to be, and wonder if I did something right, if anyone would remember my story.

But I wouldn't founder on it for too long, for even the most important people get lost, as thoughts flicker and pass.

I imagine living all my lifetimes, over again, in a matter of seconds. And maybe by some beautiful chance or fate, there would be a meadow, full of so many colours and sands, that I would feel my heart beat harder, just wanting to take it all in.

And finally I would land, with the thump on the soft green beneath, with my arms spread wide, by my side, I would be lost in the beautiful flowers, hidden from sight.

And there I would lay forever, one with the things I love the most, at peace at ease, just me and my silence. Finally, nobody left to please.

Try as you might sometimes things just don't work out. Everyone is growing, learning and discovering themselves. And it's ok if things don't last right now. Slowly even you will figure out who your people are.

Thank you for reading. Have a nice day!