I need you to pick up. I need to hear your voice. I need to know that you're okay. I need...

I need to understand what happened, we were okay, you and I we were more than okay, we were good, we were happy, and then suddenly one day we weren't.

And I watched you sleep next to me, and I could feel it, I could feel it in every breath you took, slow and steady, slowly and steadily you were moving farther away. You were peaceful yet I know your dreams, your dreams weren't anywhere close to mine. Your dreams had nothing to do with me.

You never spoke about it, but it was there in the way everything slowed down around you, in the way you took every step with caution, like you were too afraid to get caught, but that's how I knew, how I knew that the slower you got the faster you were planning to run.

You mistook my silence for my acceptance, you took everything you had and you left, without saying goodbye because I guess we both knew that you were already gone, the only thing left was for your body to follow. And so it did.

I create scenarios in my head about how someday I'll see you at some obscure place not premeditated, just walking past you going the other way and you'll look at me and see me laughing at something someone else said.

And, nothing changes, we will still be strangers who once new each others deepest secrets.

No, I don't do it to hurt myself, or maybe I do, maybe it's a form of pain I like to put myself through, I know you and I are never going to be, and yet I allow myself to dream, telling myself that it's just childish play, they hurt no one, not even me.

And maybe this is some kind of superpower that has been bestowed upon our kind, or so I want to believe, that we can feel just how warm and fuzzy our hearts get when it thinks about them...

Right out the door, right out of my heart, and you made sure to shut the door behind you so I couldn't follow you. But I need to, I need to hear your voice, just one more time. So pick up. Pick up and tell me that even if it will never be the same, it will still be okay, it will be okay, it has to be okay, just not Today. Not Today.