Dear number that I am unable to get myself to delete,

We went from friends to best friends to more than best friends and then drifted so very apart that what used to be calls every other hour or messages, every other minute became a staring game just to see if you were online and were probably asking someone else the same stuff you used to ask me.

Atleast that is what I told myself to try and make myself hate you.

Ever so often I go to your contact and hover over the delete option and not once have I been able to follow through. Every single time it asks me if I'm sure I want to delete you, hesitate.

It is just the thought that mayvbe, on some odd day you will see something familiar and I will pop back into your memory and you will remember how good we were together. Or maybe you will be standing in a coffee shop and want to call me up just ask me what new flavour you should try out.

And what if I don't pick up because I couldn't recognize you number. I know how you have always said you cut the call before the phone rings go dead because you constantly think you are bothering the other person if they don't pick up within the first few, and I guess I just want you to know that I will always be there for you.

I know it is not right, my friends tell me to just forget about you, but it is a little hard, isn't it? Because I am trying, I really am. But how would deleting your number achieve that? Ever if we are not anything more, we still used to be best friends, we still used to talk about everything, and may be some day you will need that person in your life again. We really were good together. Right?

So I will keep your number saved, even if you never decide to call me or text me. I guess it is my way of holding on to a past I never wish to forget. But it is also just my way of telling you, I am still here if you ever need me, ever in life.

I don't think I can ever delete you from my life when I can't even delete your number.