How many heartbreaks until we finally learn to deal with one?

Growing up, I was always surrounded by people who smiled too much and hid their pain behind their obnoxious loud laugh.

I was six when I had my first heartbreak. It was annual function at school and I had danced, wearing my mother's silk saree but didn't win.

Later that night, my father took me to my friend's house where I ogled over her prize, came back home and spent the night wide awake looking at the stars hanging by the wall. For a six year old, I couldn't name my emotions but it felt the same as getting injection, the only difference being not just at one spot.

I was ten when i moved to a new school. On the first day, I got lost. The second day, father came to pick me up in the second period itself. For the next few days, I stayed home and mother would coax me into telling her why I didn't want to go to school but I had no answers, other than the fact that I had to endure whisperings and chuckles while everyone talked behind my back.

I was thirteen when my best friend of two years told me that she didn't want me in her life anymore because I felt too much and hover too much.

I was fifteen when I first fell in love with a guy who wasn't family. I had read too many stories of teen romance that I would fantasize about mine. We became strangers to friends and after sharing some embarrassing but cute moments together such as holding hands and playing hide and seek with our eyes, we were back to being strangers. later, I saw him falling hard for another girl while I was still looking for the pieces of myself under my bed.

At eighteen, I fell in love again with the guy who was almost perfect. We opened up towards each other like souls who were separated once and were looking for a way to get back together in a sea full of love, hatred, betrayal and hope, through screens.

He was the first guy who ever loved me but the bright days didn't last long and I was thrown back into the world where I was invisible and desperate to find the pieces of myself, again.

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