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In this blog I am going to share all about this week. From 10th of May to 16th May. In the end maybe you find answers to your questions too.

I fell ill this week. Something was wrong about my stomach and after few days it came out to be my menstruation. This week I lost my grandpa's brother, a really nice man he was. This week I didn't talk to any of my so called friends. Ya, I chatted with my best friend Xiaoqi (the name I have given to her). It was just about how she lost her current instagram account. You can say that most of the time I was watching BTS related stuff this week. But still, I completed third chapter of my Maths book. I am a bit slower this year. My best friend has already completed 13 chapter in science and everyone person in this world is doing some work. Initially I was using BTS to escape my duties. But later, when I was the videos that how they worked so damn hard to reach where they are today, I decided to work hard too. It was a week with chaos. As usual I played badminton regularly this week, in my street. But not on Sunday. I started my own Official YouTube channel and Instagram account. At first, I wasn't sure if I should go for it, but later on I thought that I am not doing anything and I should start something I like. I realised that I love editing videos. Today, I read my diary from past year and realised that I was very fast and quick last year. I think it was because I wanted to beat my best friend by completing my syllabus first. But this year, I don't wanna beat anyone in anything. I just want to find about my likes and dislikes. There is also a little dream in my heart. My another close friend, who lost her father on 27 April due to Corona, is really good at modelling and want to pursue it as a career. I wanna help her in any way.

This week I listened to the storys of Sadat Hasan Manto. On the base of ek purani kahani, vocalised by rj sayema, what a beautiful voice she has. I re-listened to the storys and remembered the time when I had listened them for the first time. It eas the time when exams were on our head and I was completing whole syllabus of maths in just 3 days. It was also the time when I completed the work of science frok ch 1 to ch 15 just in one night. How hard it was to survive those days after the death of Amma, my grandma.

This week was nostalgic. Reminding me of several good and bad things happened with me in these years. If you are also procastinating then don't, please don't. But how not to???? In most of the cases we leave our work in middle or don't even start it because we are stressed by the fact that we can't even solve a minor problem. But if you just force yourself and pick your work, even just for 10 minutes, you won't leave without completing. I try to find motivation in everything around me, but unfortunately I can't. Motivation comes only when I talk to myself or try to motivate someone else.

This week was so dreadful. I see a dream everyday. These days I didn't have any good or normal dreams. I had been overthinking on everything this week. I remember the day before tomorrow. My brother said a sentence to me in the morning, it was not supposed to be mean, it was just a serious reminder. But I started overthinking about it and lasted up with a harsh headache. This week wasn't easy and even more dangerous weeks are coming. I'll try my best to fight with them. I'm not going to die before death and so are you. As long as you have a reason to live you'll live and not be just alive. If you don't have a reason to live, then find one straight ahead!!!

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Your dear friend,

Yagya

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