So I knew it from my childhood. That something is wrong in my Family. my parents are little bit weird. They never liked the people I liked. my happiness doesn't matter to them. Yelling, harassments, abusing makes them comfortable with me. whenever I think about my childhood it haunt me. Mostly scary phase of my life, My eyes just flow like a river, I get emotional easily. I have been beaten badly without any reason. Alcoholic dad was never in sense. he protection me but at same time, disrespectful treated. Those where hard days as a child. Mom use to go to office even after knowing that I was not happy with dad. she use to leave me all alone. I use to wait for her, in that fear that my dad is going to do something with me - beat me, abuse me, or else lock me in the room.
it was very much scary. I was a unhappy, depressed and sad child. my family was disturbing. they had fights every time. I have seen beating my mom - slapping her. Dad used my mom very well. she had no option left. with no support she struggled all life. I am helpless I don't know what to do. just hate my dad badly. I wish he should go out my life forever. he manipulates us, plays with our feelings. And yes we are still facing somewhere. journey like this was so hard. At one point I started hating myself I became under confident, anxiety came in, I lost interest, nothing was beautiful to me. I was completely lost.
As a single daughter of my parents I will say, parents plays a very important role in our life. we need you in a good manner. your little bad behavior affects us a lot. it destroys us mentally and physically. And this loss we face lifetime. it's worse than a curse. we can't love anyone and at the same time can't be loved by someone. everything become complicated and mess. so please love us, support us, trust us, talk to us 🥺
